Muse

Depression, my muse.
Anxiety, my mistress.
I’ll meet you in the foyer,
when my love has gone to sleep.
Serenity, my love,
I have betrayed you
as you dream.

Depression, my muse.
Pose for me as I draw you.
Let me drown in your
darkness.
Empty me the way
only you can.

Anxiety, my mistress.
Hold me tight
until I can’t breathe.
Let me suffocate
in your arms.
Extinguish me the way
only you can.

Depression and anxiety,
if you ever meet
it’ll be the end of me.
I can’t draw as I
suffocate.
I can’t draw as I
drown.
I can’t break depression’s
heart.
For if I do, Lord only knows,
what blanket of darkness
will cover me,
will drain me of
all life.

I can’t let anxiety down.
For if I do, Lord only knows,
how quickly the air
will be sucked from my lungs,
will lift me high only
to watch me fall.

Do you two enjoy hurting me?
Now I see,
it’s so clear,
you knew each other all along.
You shared my strengths,
you shared my weakness.
You took it all and left me
with the debt of emptiness
I can’t ever repay.
How do you pay nothing
with something
that doesn’t exist?

I watch you two leave,
hand in hand,
laughter filling the air.
I was, am, yours to own.
I should have known.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s